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Thesis

bkmyd — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 20:56:07 +0000

Thesis for paper:

Chris McCandless, a young man searching for the true meaning of life in todays society, travels through America to learn how to survive in the world on his terms, as described in Jon Krakauer’s, Into the Wild.

When I read Into the Wild, immediately I could relate to the main character Chris McCandless. The way he just dropped everything, his family, his career opporunities, his whole life just dropped it right infront of his feet and walked off without it. He truly inspires me, I have always wanted to live out in the wilderness and live by my own rules, in fact this book really reminds me of the Hatchet series. I loved Brian’s Return and I only wish that I could do that some day.

Thinking

bkmyd — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 17:38:32 +0000

Should I stay or should I go?

To leave would be to lose the love but to stay would be to allow the pain to stay.

I wish this would all just go away, I wish that this topic never left his lips, I wish that some how this would all just magically fix itself without hurting me.

To fall asleep forever right now would be encouraging, to leave things the way they are right this instint would be the most amazing act in the world.

To fall asleep and never wake, so that I could feel as happy as this near future makes me feel.

To fall asleep and never wake, to keep that not-so-near future far from my mind, my soul, my heart.

I just wish it would all just float away, no more pain, no more suffering, letting the world leave me with this feeling of bliss, untouched for all time.

To Do in 2008

bkmyd — Sun, 10 Feb 2008 19:41:25 +0000

Start setting more reminders on my phone, so I can remember everything and in turn I will become better at remembering the things that I must do daily or weekly.

Try take time as much time as possible but no less than five to ten minutes each day to reflect and think about what you want to do, have to do, or have done that day. Figure out if you can improve on something, maybe act a little nice or say something a different way. Just make sure you think about what you are doing.

Make your bed everyday before you leave the house. No one wants to see a messing room when they come home and having a nice made bed will be one less stress for when you come home.

Start using your laptop for school. It is a great tool to have and it should be used to itâ€™s fullest potential.

Remember to look people in the eyes when they are talking to you, it shows power and it shows that you are unafraid. Do not cower away from the world, you have just as much right to be here and learn here as anyone else.

Keep your desk organized. Go through once every couple of days and make sure that everything is in its place and all of the trash or unorganized papers are necessary and will be used. If not THROW IT AWAY!

Every night before you go to bed, go through the house and make sure everything is picked up. All of the food any kind of papers are organized and then make sure all of the doors in the house are locked.

At least once a week talk with mom. It can be any topic except school. That is all that has been talked about for the last two months and you need to get back on a more personal level with her. You are mother and daughter.

DO YOUR HOMEWORK when you get it. Do NOT wait homework days are Tuesday and Thursday. Other than work and the special occasions when Jeff comes down you have absolutely nothing to do so do your homework. Its as easy as pie.

This week try to get as many supplies and books as possible, it might not be much but you need to start working on homework ASAP.

Start working out again. Go to either the gym or bike or skate around the neighborhood, anything to get active again. You are turning into a piece of lard (even though you are losing weight). This will keep your body and mind healthy because you always walk away from a workout refreshed.

What’s in a Night?

bkmyd — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 06:29:49 +0000

I love the night time, when it is dark all of the confusions of color, light, and the abnormal just vanish. These are the times that I would most like to just sit out in an open field and watch the stars while listening to the still nothingness with the occasional swish of the breeze. Oh to be in that field of my dreams would be complete and utter bliss, the freedom, the passion, the darkness.

Class Cancelled?!

bkmyd — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 21:34:40 +0000

Aww . . . I wish class weren’t cancelled. I like Mrs. Alley’s class. Now I have nothing to do for 3 and a half hours!!! Hmmm . . . I already went on a hike today, what else should I do???

wierd

bkmyd — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 00:19:33 +0000

are we supposed to be writing about something right now? i cant remember!! we had reading to do today didn’t we?

Persuasion

bkmyd — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 22:48:56 +0000

To tell you the truth, I have never actually been persuaded by anyone to do or think a certain way. I believe that I have been too open-minded about everything to be told to think differently about something or someone. With people I try to base my opinions off of what I have personally encountered about specific people and when it comes to issues like wars, politicians, types of religions and other such things I try to understand why or get facts about different things. But I do not remember such an instance as to when someone has persuaded me to think any different than what I believe.

An Inconvenient Truth

bkmyd — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 21:14:30 +0000

The way that this movie changed me the first time was that I really started thinking about what will happen and what might happen to the world in the next 50 to 100 years. I also started thinking about what I can do to start helping the environment, because if this world is going to survive there are only two ways for that to happen. One the earth starts protecting itself without any regards to what the human race or any other animal might want it to do, or two man kind can start fixing the problems that we’ve created so that we don’t all die when the earth decides to fight back. I began to recycle more and now that I am older and can drive, I am looking at the electric cars as a future vehicle. I would like to live until I die of natural causes and I would also like my children to have happy full lives until they die of natural causes, and the same goes for my grandchildren, so I’ve decided that it is time to start caring for the world that we live on instead of looking for a new home so we can destroy that as well.

Today

bkmyd — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 21:51:58 +0000

Today is an interesting day. I get to think about nothing. And while thinking about nothing, I will allow myself to just float in the never-ending abyss of nothingness.